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I'm Done

2003-09-03T16:27:00.000-05:00

Hey guyz I'm sorry but I'm Done with this Blog. I dont use dis one anymore.. it was JUST TOO BORING for me!! so now i got a NeW one!! It's *AbbS* so there ya go if ya wanna know bout me and whatnot.. its wayyy cooler than this one! but this one has my funny page and other stuff on here so im still gonna keep this up but not update anymore. 'mk well <33 Late

~*pretty lyrics to a pretty song

2003-08-31T13:18:00.000-05:00

~*He drowns in his dreams An exquisite extreme I know He's a damned as he seems More Heaven than a heart could hold And if I tried to save him My whole world could cave in Just ain't right Just ain't right Oh and I don't know I don't know what he's after But he's so beautiful Such a beautiful disaster If I could hold on Through the tears and the laughter Would it be beautiful Or just a beautiful disaster He's magic and myth As strong as what I believe A tragedy with More damage than a soul should see And do I try to change him So hard not to blame him Hold on tight Hold on tight I'm longing for love and the logical But he's only happy hysterical I'm waiting for some kind of miracle Waiting so long He's soft to the touch But frayed at the ends he breaks He's never enough And still he's more than I can take Oh and I don't know I don't know what he's after But he's so beautiful Such a beautiful disaster If I could hold on Through the tears and the laughter Would it be beautiful Or just a beautiful disaster......-"beautiful Disaster" By Kelly Clarkson.. a very pretty song lol im listening to it right now.

~*um..so far so boring.

2003-08-31T10:28:00.000-05:00

~*Ok well there is really nothing going on yet cuz i just woke up! but like I'm bored, so i figured i would blog or something. well last night i had so much fun at ArtSplash. im such an artsy person. i love drawing and being creative! makes me feel a lil different from everyone else. anyways i worked at the Sylvan Learning Center Booth for my school (heelan) Miracle Maker's (I'm a core member) i had worked there for like two hours and the majority of that time was spent wearing the "captain flashcard" costume...i had to walk around in a huge heavy black cape and a big floppy black hat and carry pamphlets and balloons and ask little kid's if they wanted to be read a story because "reading is an art" lol that was our little motto. but i guess i did really good cuz our booth got so busy after i started getting ppl to go and i kept running out of pamphlets. so it was good. except the guy running the booth took a pic of me in the costume so thats gonna be a lil embarrassing. oh well i can laugh at myself its all good. anyway when i first started working i made a hat for myself and i filled up balloons with helium (and of course made my voice funny from it..i love doing that i sounded so weird especially when i laughed) and then my friend Kavitha showed up and we talked for a while (she was working at a diff. booth) and then some guyz from school where working at the arts for all booth (i had actually worked there last year it was fun i worked with a senior and she was really nice) and they came up and talked to me for a lil bit. it was funny cuz they made Kevin wear alllll the pinwheels (they make them at the AFA booth and they were publiciting it) and i was like "I LOVE THE PINWHEELS!" lol it was funny and then later when i was wearing the costume of course i got some crap about it from them. but whatever lol and then Ramya took over which is funny cuz i would never imagine HER being out there doing that!! and well i guess she kinda had a hard time. but oh well business was kinda running down cuz it was getting later. and i caught up with my friend Vitha and we walked around and i had to make a pinwheel lol it looks soooooo pretty! and then we went and watched a magic show thingy it was so fun and then we walked around and she had to go back to work and so i went and watched the Chinese Acrobats (THEY WERE SOOOO COOL!!!) and then i made my very own beautiful (not) sunglasses lol they are in the shape of starz and have glitter all over them. anyways then later me and vitha hung out again and we went to the playground and played on the swing set it and we took some pictures together too it was so fun! but today... nothing really has gone on yet today. i might go for a walk or something today. its not supposed to be too warm today so i might actually be wearing some warm clothes! lol well i dont have much more to talk about so i think im gonna go now. ~XoXo~ God Bless

~*Art Splash

2003-08-30T22:37:00.000-05:00

~*Hey Everyone!! I am like really really hyper for some odd reason i cant stop like i dunno im just really energetic right now. i got home from Art Splash not too long ago, and i saw some ppl i havent seen/talked to in a long time! it was fun! then i went to the Arts For All booth (i worked there last year) and me and my friend made a pin wheel that had my name on it and stuff and its cool i might put it in my locker at school. anyways im having a blast today i am talking to ppl online right now alot of ppl lol its so fun tho. omg im playing a prank on my friend. lol its funny. im so bored right now and thats not cool when i am hyper (plus i cant stand being bored) well im gonna go cuz its hard to type and talk to ppl at the same time so write more later!~XoXo~ God Bless

~*High School YearBook

2003-08-29T23:07:00.000-05:00

~*hey guyz! wow today was actually a perdy good day!! I didnt have Driver's Ed. this morning so i could like, SLeep In for like an extra 1/2 hour!! yay! lol then we only had 15 minute classes cuz we got out early at noon!! and PLUS we had mass (which isnt too bad if you are in Liturgical choir like me! lol at least you actually DO something like singing rather than just sitting there half awake) anywayz..then i went thru my fast easy classes..and i dunno it was just fun i talked to a bunch of ppl and stuff and then after school there was like a line that was as long as the entire hall to get our Year books cuz it was the sophomore's day to get theirs!! i am sooo happy to have mine..but unfortunately i had to wait like 20 minutes in line to get it.. and it was on the 4th floor so it was hot and it kinda smelled cuz it was the FrEsHmAn hall...lol jus messin.. newayz so i got the yearbook and i looked thru it and i found my picture on the 3rd page already lol then again on the next page! but unfortunately BOTH PICTURES LOOK SO GROSS OF ME!! BLECH!! and then i was in the madrigal section and that wasnt too bad except my mouth is WIDE open (but really what else is new? my mouth seems to be ALWAYS open) lol but really it was ok.. Madrigal was soooo fun last year! i hope to make it again this year!! BUT WHAT I REALLY HOPE TO MAKE IS SHOWCHOIR!! i've wanted to be in showchoir since like 5th grade after i saw Harmonia Mundi perform! i think they are soo cool and i just absolutely LOVE music and dancing and i kinda really get into it, i mean i totally have the whole spirit for it trust me! i just wish i wouldnt choke on the audition or get sick (last year i had like strept throat the day of auditions yet i still went and auditioned... i totally cracked on the high note!) so i guess you can tell i didnt make it..<:- ( oh well i am certainly determined to make it this year! and i am totally going to be miss involved in everything this year!! lol i like to be involved in alot of school activities its fun! i just wanna make the best of it! -^_^- ~XoXo~ god bless

~*Boring Day...

2003-08-28T15:13:00.000-05:00

~*hey ppl! today was kinda a boring day actually...i didnt break another bracket on my braces lol (even tho my teeth still hurt -_-) anyways i didnt forget any homework or go to any wrong classes (like i did a couple days ago lol) and i didnt leave early from school (even tho we had an early out from the heat again) anyway...it was just another boring day. i actually dont have TOOOOO much homework... at least it's stuff that's easy like Novel Comp. and Geometry... easy peasy.. last night i was talking to some ppl and one of my friends were showing me some cool pics.. i went on this site that had stuff like that and so i found some really cool ones...I also found this really pretty poem on one of them.. "Some People come into our lives and quickly Go...Some People become Friends and Stay Awhile...Leaving B e a u t i f u l footprints on our Hearts... and we are ~never~ quite the same because we Have made a Good f r i e n d..." ~*I love all my friends and i hope they all know that i do. you all mean a lot to me <3 ~XoXo~ talk to you all later!

~*Oh No the Braces CRISES!!

2003-08-27T16:34:00.000-05:00

~*Hey Boiz and Gurliez! well i dont know if im really gonna have enough time to get back online later (i had to sneak online right now just to check email and update and whatnot.. LoL) anyways...yea yesterday wasnt the best but I'm already over it. i kinda do that alot. like i will be upset about something and then like later I'm Totally fine! lol i dunno dont ask me! anyways today was a really bad day at school but like for some reason im like really in a good mood. like today at school it was crazy.. At MIDNIGHT last night a bracket on my braces Broke off.. and it was like a chain thingy and like it just HUNG there. it looked SOOOO bad... and i had to go to SCHOOL with a Broken Bracket hanging in my mouth. It was SO bad lol i had to try and keep my mouth shut (yea i know thats like impossible!) and stuff so no one could see it but like at choir Mr.Storm was like "you all need to open your mouths more to get a better sound" and I'm thinking..yea wait till tomorrow lol. so then i went to my locker like after Early Bird (Driver's Ed.) and i noticed that i forgot my Bio Honors Binder at HOME with MY HOMEWORK IN IT!! AHHHH the class is hard enough as it is but then i already forget an assignment like the 4th day of school?? oh gosh lol that was bad so then my day was pretty normal like just routine school stuff and then when i went to lunch i saw my buddie Emily Conway and sat with her and Kavitha and Lisa and i showed Emily my broken bracket and told her about it and she like started Laughing really bad at me!! so hard that she started crying! lol i was like THANKS!! I KNOW ITS JUST SOOOO HILARIOUS! lol yea it was kinda funny tho... she said it looked like a keychain and that was ok with me lol i just laughed it off. then Lisa came and sat down and since she had braces too i told her bout my broken bracket and we talked about that for a while and then Emily told me to show her my bracket and Lisa started to laugh really hard like to the point of crying too! I mean I'm soooo glad to amuse you guys! lol nah it was ok i just laughed too. yea so then we all went to our next class after lunch and mine so happend to be Bio Honors...BLECH.. and of course i was sooo scared cuz i 4got my homework and i was scared she was like going to humiliate me in front of the class (it's not like she hasnt done it b4 to other ppl) but like she was cool about it! she said everyone has an off day and that i can get away with it today but next time its a 0%... so yea i CANT forget anymore!! then i got out earlier than everyone cuz i HAD to go to the Orthidontist and get my Braces fixed (yea so ppl wont laugh at me anymore) and well what do you know?!? MY orthidontist wasnt in today so they pushed my appt. back to like 2pm and i was already out of school at noon. i missed my Bio class and my Spanish class...that kinda made me mad cuz i dont want to get behind but like i guess it wasnt too bad either. but then i went to the orthidontist and the other guy who did it this time instead of my regular orthidontist put on a Bracket on this other tooth that i didnt have a bracket on yet and then like put a wire thing on this tooth im trying to get down and it hurt SOOO BAD! and it took like an hour cuz the girl doing it for me didnt know what she was doing (yea and she graduated from North High...I wonder if THAT had something to do with it...jusssmesssssing i just like to rag on my north friends.) anyways then i came home and like fell asleep on my bed cuz i was sooo tired..but now i should probably get going on my homework (cuz i got a ton but what else is new..) and stuff but like my teeth hurt really bad now! oh and yea my braces color is now bLuE! not pink nemore like they UsEd to be lol not that you all really care... I'm Sure you are tired of reading about my TEETH and my stupid day at school LoL so i will probably talk to you later! ~XoXo~ P.S. if you want to sign my GUESTBOOK... you need to click on the Link that goes to my old website (StarLight...its on the right of the page) and there is 2 buttons on the main page one that says "view guestbook" and one that says "Sign Guestbook" click the "sign guestbook" one to sign my guestbook so i know who all loves me and who doesnt and who has seen my lovely lovely Blog lol.....LaTeR...

~*very bad sad day...

2003-08-26T19:59:00.000-05:00

~*Hey everyone.. this is by far the worst day ever. I am really upset about alot of stuff. it makes me so sad. I found out that a friend of mine Blocked me on AIM. it makes me really really feel bad. I mean.. what the hell did i do? this all started happening after my friend told some stuff that i really really wasnt ready for ANYONE to know. that's why i NEVER tell anyone who i like anymore. I'm totally over him and i even like someone else already but like...i still wish he was my friend. i miss him as my bud. today was like the day from hell. and it seems to get more and more worse as the day goes on. i seriously dont know what to do with myself. i wish i could talk to someone about this but like... when i tried to talk to my friend about it on the phone..she just started talking about this guy she liked and kinda blew off my problems. i feel like no one listens to me. this is the first time in a long time that i have broken down about the stress and shit. like i normally dont ever let stuff like this bug me. but... when it comes to friends i totally like...i need my friends to be there for me. and lately i just feel like... they arent. and that really makes me sad. what do i do about it tho? one of my friends totally blocked me off. and that i dont even understand why. which makes it even worse. maybe im just a very annoying person. i usually dont mind but like... ppl who i used to be great friends with arent talking to me much anymore. that hurts. im gonno go now! ~XoXo~

~*HaHa a very confusing Post...

2003-08-25T20:50:00.000-05:00

~*hey guyz.. gosh today was a great day. well it was okay anyway. better than yesterday.. well yesterday was fun but right now i feel ok lol its kinda hard to explain..anyway this is gonna have to be short b.c i have to do my LOAD of Homework. I mean GEEZ its only the second day of school and i already have homework in almost every subj. its so not fair... i really want to talk to ppl. but i cant b.c my dad will be home any minute and kick me off the computer and plus i got homework to do and..and.. im just SOOOOO stressed already. BLECH i already cant wait till its the Weekend. today was actually pretty funny. My friend freaked on me and said that i was becoming anorexic! i was like... OMG calm down! it was all over something i wrote in a note and she's like freaking out over it and what made it worse was i wasnt eating lunch today b/c i stupidly forgot my lunch money...and she thought i was starving myself. i was like calm down im not trust me!! HaHa it was funny cuz i would never do that to myself. anywayz....nothin much has happened to me lately im so boring.. i got tons of homework...oh now im talking to someone online lol so now im procastinating again.. OMG its thundering outside right now and i am like jumping cuz it scared me soo much!! ok, my friend is acting weird...im gonna go now lol write more later! ~XoXo~

~*feeling a bit rushed..

2003-08-24T22:28:00.000-05:00

~*heylo everyone! today was mostly a great day! well I woke up from my Mom telling me to go get her something from SuperValue...Yeah at 9:30 in the MORNING. I had to walk over there. I mean, SHE HAS A CAR! I HAVE TO WALK! Not Fair! well anyway...then i came home and i had to get in the shower and whatnot and got ready for this surprise party thing for my uncle up at a lake in Le Mars... mostly routine as usual...and well i went to the party and hung out with my cousin (she's gonna be in 7th grade) and i talked to her bout my summer (i havent talked to her in a while) and well i told her bout my fun trip to adventureland with all my friends and then about school and about softball and gosh about my whole summer! lol well then we went down to the lake and suntanned (sadly i dont think i got too tan lol) and we talked about how when she's a freshman im gonna be a SENIOR. SCARY HUH?! lol well anyway, then i DROVE HOME! yesh! my mom actually trusted me to drive all the way home! and well then i went to superwalmart to get some school supplies. then i got home and changed into my Lovely new SpongeBob shirt (of course. i mean. its SPONGEBOB!) and it was about an hour b4 i had to go to my Youth Group meeting.. so i went in my room and watched tv and my friend called and i talked to her for awhile and then b4 i knew it i was supposed to be over to my youth group meeting! so i bolted over there and hung out over there and talked and listened to music n whatnot...it was interesting. but at the end i talked/got to see ppl i havent seen in a while so it was allll good. i felt so bad for one of my friends tho. i talked to her in the bathroom and she kinda fell apart. i felt so bad like i didnt know what to say. she recently lost a friend. well anyway i dont really want to go into much detail, im sure she wouldnt apreciate it. well i dunno..i just feel like right now, i am trying to help everyone else. like...alot of my friends are going thru some really hard times right now. and I am TOTALLY there for them 110%. but its like... im always there for everyone else. but who's there for me? i feel like im always giving and giving but who can i trust? i know maybe ONE or two ppl from school that are good friends but like, i dunno i feel like i just need someone to be there for me too. I'm not ALWAYS happy about everything. there's alot of stuff i go thru too but i kinda hide it with a smile cuz I dont really feel like ppl need to know about my problems. but then i realize that THAT is a problem. i really shouldnt hide everything but like...i dunno im just afriad to open up sometimes. like recently i was thinking about going to North. like, its a good school and i hear the teachers are good and the ppl are nice and alot of my friends go there. but like im afraid of starting all over you know? and like what if my friends who go there dont wanna hang out with me, or i will get annoying to them (trust me it wouldnt be too much of a surprise, i know that i can be quite annoying at times..) so i dunno! oh well i guess i will just go on with my boring life at heelan. i dont really like the uniforms (i cant wear my SPONGEBOB SHIRT!! NOOO LoL) the classes i have are hard >:0( and..i dunno im kinda sick of how ppl are treated there sometimes. i dunno im gonna shut up now cuz im sure that I'm gonna say too much or sumthin and someone is gonna read this and make a HUGE deal of it at school so i will just stop while im ahead. ttyl! ~XoXo~

~*First Blog Entry

2003-08-23T11:12:00.000-05:00

~*hey guyz this is my very first blog... I used to have another site called "StarLight" but It was through Yahoo! Pagebuilder and for some reason it won't let me update anymore. so i said screw it and got a new one here! yay! LoL anyway... yesterday was the first (kinda) day of school. BLECH. it totally sucked. not only do i not have many classes with good friends of mine and i am forced to talk to new ppl that i usually dont talk to...but my classes are hard too! and i have the feeling that one or two of my teachers are going to HATE me after the year is over LoL. OH i am taking Drivers Ed this year... at 7 in the morning b4 school! Grrr... well at least i dont have Early Bird...which is weird cuz i am so used to having that. lol well then after my bad day at school i went to a Core Member Miracle Makers Meeting... we went to Caroline's house and ate pizza and discussed what we were going to do for the year...as to regarding the Snowball Dance and the extra activities and fundraisers and whatnot. it was actually really fun! and then after that i got a ride home from Annie (yes. i dont have a license yet. i am only 15. and currently taking Drivers Ed like i said earlier....to get my School Permit so i can drive to and from all school functions by myself! yay!) then i went to a school dance/social thingy later that night...it was so much fun! i danced the entire time and just talked to everyone! then afterward i gave Emily C. a ride home cuz her ride kinda left her...but anyway...my day yesterday was ok! then today i have to go do some paint job for a friend of the family (im painting designs on her stairway walls and entrance walls) its not necessarily what I WANT to do today but i will survive..plus i get PAID...I need the money lol im broke. plus i gotta get Dianna a birthday present...its already late! lol well i better go now... ~XoXo~